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Game time!
February 23rd, 2006 (03:16 pm)
current mood: drained
current mood: drained
Okay,been thinking about this one for awhile,since I decided that this lj was gonna be solely for my RP posts. As such,here goes nothing...meaning,I was able to rebuild one of my lost sl fragments!
*Lays on the bed thats mine,in the new apartment thats mine...shivering despite the way it probably is outside. Warm and nice,and a great day to be missing out on,though such reasonings would be lost on someone such as me right now,given the situation that I willingly placed myself in. Which at the time,seemed like the best course of action,given how wonderful the year had been,up to this point in time*
~What in the heck is wrong with me? Why do I feel like I could peel my skin off,and even though it would sting like crazy....I wouldn't care? How in the heck am I going to survive without that little pill that keeps all the nightmare whisperings in my mind at bay,for 3 months?!? Shoot,don't even think I could last 3 more days! Hmm...maybe I could steal some of what Tina has,yeah thats the best thing I can do...now all I gotta do is be strong enough to want to venture out of this place for more than five seconds. And before I could make good on what I wanted to do,who should show up,and find me in the worst possible state a human should willingly place themselves in?~
Rocco: *After walking into the master bedroom,and the apartment proper beforehand* Hey...what the heck has been up with you the last couple weeks? Everyone has been trying to get ahold of you on the phone,and yet...you don't want to talk? Thats so not like you,its not even funny
*Snarls at him* Go away
Rocco: No
*Stares at him,seething* I said go away and don't bother coming back! I can NEVER forgive you for what you did to me,NEVER!
Rocco: Way I see it,your wanting to give your adoptive mommy 2 more grandchildren...was as much your choice,as it was mine,as such....don't even try to hand me that nonsense,as I refuse to let you sit,lay there,whatever the heck it is you are presently doing,and pick at me like that girl who you despised back in our old neighborhood!
*Stands up at those last words,my eyes blazing and totally in tune with my feelings that reside in my heart* Forget you,forget her...forget everything! YOU RAPED ME,just like the person who gave me my first,and only child! And just like that idiot,you lied about what you did to me! *Which was when I closed to within striking distance of him,and it was pretty clear what my intentions were,when I had gotten close enough to do more than half shout simple words at him*
Rocco: *Standing there,taking in all of what he saw before him. Me at my worst. Hair unwashed for more than 3 days...dark circles under my eyes...clothes that reeked of the failure that I felt had soaked its way into my very pores* Oh really now...well if thats how you feel,by all means,go right ahead do your worst then *which was when he went and dropped his hands to his sides,fully intending to take everything I dished out at him,not in the mood to defend himself or anything. And yeah,he didn't put up any fight when I kicked his legs out from under him,knelt on his chest,and starting tearing into him with my fists. Which is what I would have wanted to do,were I in posession of the strength that would make such a fantasy a reality. What did I end up doing? Well....*
*Crying openly and heavily as I do what I can to try and disappear into his embrace,as he simply holds me,stroking my hair as much as he can,talking to me like the father that I needed,yet was unwilling to allow him to help,since he wasn't my real dad* I am so sorry about what you had to see just now...I'm not myself! What the heck is wrong with me,can you explain these feelings that I have inside my head,my heart?
Rocco: *Quietly* Its called withdrawal. I went through it big time when I was down in Florida,after what happened...scared the crap out of the rest of the gang. And I mean big time...I thought I was gonna go outside,and jump off a cliff or something,just to get the voices in my mind to shut themselves off...
You and I never talked much about what happened when we parted ways...shoot,matter of fact,right after you got back in my life...it was as if you'd never left.
Rocco: Don't I know it,your parents tried to force us to stay apart,even though I've got a decent job,same as you...why the heck did they never like me?
Its because I wouldn't listen to my mom...for the reasons we discussed when I suspected she wasn't really my mom,she never understood what happened to me,until the first time I defied her. She tried to get me to get out of bed,I refused...she snatched me up,and I started screaming 'no hurt no hurt no hurt',then I started repeating mama mama mama mama...until she asked me what was going on,which was when I told her...'mama hurt,say she love me'...
Rocco: Oh
*Sighs* She only wanted to make sure I was never as bad off as what the real mother became...
Rocco: Of course,so anyway...
Hmm?
Rocco: You eaten anything yet?
*Blinks* What are you saying...you want me to go out to eat? Look at me,I'm a mess! And it won't wash away in enough time for me to make a dinner reservation,if you can get one at a restaurant!
Rocco: Oh heck no,nothing like that...I thought I'd go to the restaurant that signs my paychecks,and get us two dinners to go,whatever you feel like,some salad bar...and some dessert,then...we eat here,and make sure little sister doesn't interfere
Sounds like a plan
Rocco: One problem though
And that would be?
Rocco: You reek,as such...I'm going to get your sister and have her oversee your clean up
Okay...~and true to his word,he went and tracked her down,all but shoving her into the place we usually shared. Then he left,figuring he'd have enough time to accomplish his deed,while we did the same~
After she showed:
Tina: Wow,he wasn't kidding. You reek. SO! What all am I supposed to do here? Do I have to bathe the little princess,or is she capable of doing it on her own?
Ha ha,you should take your act on the road,maybe hit Vegas or something
Tina: Maybe when I'm done with school...for now though...back to what I asked?
I need to get cleaned up,and not just because boy toy wants a night out,in...
Tina: I see. Well,come on then...*which was when she led me to the bathroom,critically inspecting the basket that sits in the smallish linen closet* Um,most of these bottles are ones that are unopened...why?
*Sighs while sitting on the closed lid of the toilet* Because...I...well...oh just quit asking about some of those purchases I made,yet changed my mind about!
Tina: Sheesh...no need to bite my head off,just asking
Sorry
Tina: No need to...anyway,I'm gonna place a couple bottles in the shower then leave...
~Yeah and as soon as I saw what she placed there~ Oh heck no...
Tina: Too late,choices have been made! ~which was when she exited after shoving me towards the shower,closing the door to the bathroom and locking it from her side~ And you will thank me for this,when you are done,trust me!
Roughly 45 minutes later,hair wound in a towel,same as my body:
*Slides out of the slightly steamy bathroom,smelling like a tropical rain forest* I HATE YOU
Tina: Oh quit griping...we aren't finished yet
Um...Tina...I can dress myself you know
Tina: Who said anything about that? I plugged your curling iron in...I hope that hair is dry
*Blinks* Uh no...not gonna subject myself to that
Tina: Relax. Nothing major,just a little bit on the ends..crimped is okay for you I hope...
No...*which was when I went to try and vacate the chair I was sitting on*
Tina: Okay,crimped it is then...*which is what she said while she was making sure not to let me escape*
After she was finished:
Tina: Okay,no need to go any further...so lets talk 'the perfect date night outfit!'
*Sighs* You're really getting a kick out of this aren't you...
Tina: Yeah,loads of fun...
Whats wrong?
Tina: Just wondering what the heck would happen to me,if there was a time that I found myself in the kind of state you were in,recently
Don't know why you'd want such a thing to...oh
Tina: Yeah,even though I was pretty close to this kind of depression,and more than when you saw
We,don't have to rehash such a thing you know...
Tina: Not trying to,just giving you some time to think about what you might want to wear
Thought about wearing that one shirt that I bought,and the gypsyish skirt to go with...
Tina: Yeah that works...hrm...okay this is weird...*which was when she held up what she found while rooting around in one of the drawers where I stashed
my unmentionables,before inspecting the tag attached to what she pulled out * A Vassarette HANDS UP PUSH UP bra? Sheesh,don't want to ever hear you calling me weird
again,if you do...I'll just have to snap a photo of you in this thing,for future torment purposes
*Snatches the item in question from her hands,slightly red faced* I just bought that,so don't start okay? Sheesh,if you must know...I had a romantic weekend getaway planned,before I started to fall apart...in case I felt I needed a change from my usual stuff
Tina: So you thought you'd tell me about some of you boudoir fantasies because...? I mean yeah,its great you thought about giving the boy toy some spice in his life,as well as yours...don't think that applies to me though,since I'm not you,and there is no way in the world I could pass for the fiancee
I know,I know sheesh...
Tina: Anyway,it works for what you plan here...you do need a bit of a boost,to make the boy toy drool...
Tina!
Tina: *Laughing* Had to pay you back for some of what you put me through,at some point in time...didn't I?
True. Heck,figured you would have tried before now...to even the score,after what I told you when I first arrived here
Tina: Wanted to,didn't have time...of course in the here and now...its a waste of time to talk about such things
I know I know...wanna help me get dressed mommy?
Tina: Wow...way to take me back to a point that you didn't get to see,when it was just my dad and me
Sorry ~and rather than hang around,she left me to finish on my own...after hooking me into my new stuff,for my top half~
Not too long after she left:
*After walking back into the place that I dwell,and seeing that the coast was all clear* Rocco: Babe? You still here? Got everything like I said I would,sorry it took so long...
*Still in the bedroom* Thats okay
Rocco: *Returning to the main part of the whole place,after a detour into the kitchen* I'm setting the stuff out on the table now,so lets get things going shall we?
Don't see why not...~which was when I walked out to where he was,effect I had on him...well...~
Rocco: Well,you...sure clean up nice
*Laughs while sitting down on the chair he offered* Didn't really have much time to do a whole lot,so its a good thing you did think to enlist the helper you chose
Rocco: Ah don't worry about it,anyway...I got two steak dinners,and the salad...as you see
Yeah,thanks
Rocco: Hey I have to know a little bit about the person who agreed to allow me to be her husband,even if...well,we don't have to go back over that now do we
Nope ~which was when we both felt the time was righht to attack the massive amount of greens that we had to eat~
Main course:
Rocco: Well...I have to admit,I did a good job on the first part,now...are you ready for the remainder? I was rather lucky when I stopped in at the restaurant,they needed to get rid of the garnishes that one would care to add to a baked potato,you know...butter...sour cream,bacon bits...they pretty much let me take what they were gonna dispose of,its not expired or anything,they just needed room for them,and other stuff in the fridge
Sounds okay,load my potato as much as you can,then slide it my way,with my steak...I'm starving! I feel like I haven't eaten in...three days,which might be around the last time I had something to eat
Rocco: No worries...it'll be ready for you,before you start eating the tablecloth or something
After watching me attack not only my potato,but what remained of his as well:
Rocco: *Smirking slightly while I lick the foil for whatever might remain,far as what would be classiried as being remnants of food on the item in question,then doing the same for the one which was the second,less appealing skin of his own spud* Yeah,remind me to never think about telling you I brought you something to eat,then jokingly told you that I was only saying those things,in the hopes you'd listen,believe me,given how I was lucky to witness you stalking a potato,like you were a lioness,and the helpless spud was a zebra or some smaller animal
*Slightly muffled,due to what I'm engaged in* Bite me
Rocco: No thanks babe,thats not what I had planned
Oh? Don't tell me that I've got more food to look forward too...
Rocco: Well my dear,we do indeed have one last course to endure. How does a slice of pie and some coffee sound?
*Eyes him warily* What kind of pie we talking here?
Rocco: Tell me first,what is your favorite?
*Starts* Oh no you didn't! You better have gotten a chocolate creme pie!
Rocco: Hardly babe,and I think you know which type of pie I am referring to...its in the fridge,and its fresh..as in made earlier today fresh
In that case,you better go and make good on your promise...because I don't want to have to lift a finger to attempt what I'd have to climb over you,to accomplish on my own!
Rocco: *Laughing again* As you wish madame...
Afterwards:
Rocco: Now,what do I do with the dishes?
*Half sitting on the couch* Take them downstairs and put them in the dishwasher,then I'll see to them when I get up in the morning,before I have to go to work
Rocco: While I am doing that,why don't you put the dvd in the player,and turn it off before I miss the opening of the movie?
That I can do ~which is when he went and accomplished his end,as I was following through on my end of the discussion. And just like the way things had been in the old days,in the old neighborhood,the two of us fell asleep,about 5 minutes before the movie was finished with the closing credits~
